The clouds are quite dark now, it's going to rain very soon. I hope it is going to be a light one cause I am going to go jogging with my beloved mummy in the evening. I kind of feel that she is going to beat me on running, she had been running daily for sometime now, while I had gained so much weight and did not exercise other than PE. I am sort of going to excercise everyday during the holidays to buff myself up^^

Biology was kind of screwed up for me. Well, maybe it's over confidence or somewhat a part of me, I thought that it was an ribcage! Carelessness kills, approx 10 marks had bid me goodbye. I still pray hard that I can enter vjc, it's like a death sentence if I get rejected from vjc, I can't even get near 6 points. Sighs, I hope that lady luck would be on my side.

I spent 3hours before the bio paper reading through all my blogposts of the 2 years ( maybe I should had studied bio). Felt that I had done quite a few stupid things, now on hindsight, I should look like a retard in the eyes of others. Well, 2 years had passed since this blog had been set up, indicating how fast time flew.

Immediately after the last paper of of's, would be ROD. Ying Yao told me that the sec2s would be singing 21guns. Sweet! -.- ... Well, the chairman needs to give a speech right? Sighs I think I would be saying my lifestory of the 4 years vs, I hope the presents are nice^^.. I'm thinking of giving the GOH badge to one of the sec2s maybe just as a gift or a momento.
I would be helping out on the vs open house, I hope that I would be of some help, hmm... Maybe after the open house we can go out and watch movies or something. Well.... Let's see if it's possible.
Not to forget NYAA gold, well, I have to get pass my parents in order to be able to go oversea, really hope I can do it. It's seems to be meaningful.

I doubt Im going to mawai, most likely only the first few days. Firstly because my passport decided to play a joke on me and expire. I had sent the application and I hope it arrives in time. Secondly, there's like nobody who is going to the Malaysia part. Well, maybe I could just stick to the Singapore part and forgo the Malaysia one.

I had decided to take up taekwondo, should be joining daryl real soon in weeks, well... It's gona be akward for me, he's gona be a black belt while I'm a white.. Btw, I hope if all fails for Nyaa, this could be a backup plan.

Let's not deny and escape.

七里香

那溫暖 的陽光 像剛摘的鮮豔草莓
你說妳捨不得吃掉這一種感覺

而妳的臉頰像田裡熟透的蕃茄
妳突然 對我說 七里香的名字很美
我此刻卻只想親吻妳倔強的嘴

Felt that this song's lyrics are very nice and poetic.

Badminton today was fun with johnson's smacks like some rocket flying around. You guys should had seen his facial expressions when his shuttlecocks were being 'killed' by us. haha. I broke the strings of my racket while playing. T.T Luckily melvina would be fixing it for me, her parents opened a sports shop i think. The only problem is who is gona fix my racket, her or her parents -.-

Basketball inbetween badminton was fun, but my stamina was obviously failing me, i just camped there waiting for the ball... hmm i realised my layups improved a little.. but i still cant do the ' back thingy' liwei did.

Prelim 2 results are out, the moderation worked in my ways, woots, im getting the graduation medal~ YES!

ps. i love physics.

Today is a public holiday, bought a cheap badminton grip at 3 bucks while eugene got his at 2. It was the last one.T.T I'm looking forward to Friday, we would playing again! Today, I didn't really study as much as I wanted to, quite unproductive studying. I also updated my songs thanks to Eugene, my songs are sort of backdated. And I think that coldplay makes good music videos.

Tomorrow, prelim 2 results would be released, all scripts released! Mixed feelings about it, hope for the best, but no point getting nervous, the scores are already keyed in, waiting to be confirmed.

How do you know the last female you texted?
Primary school friend.

Were you single on your last birthday?
Single since im born

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
yes

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
No

Do you talk a lot?
im a chatterbox

Are you happy with your life at the moment?
yes

Whats more important, trust or happiness?
happiness

Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?
no

Have you ever met someone who is amazing?
yes

Ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex every day?
no

Did your siblings ever tell you that you were adopted?
no

Do you cuddle with other people while you're dating someone?
never tried

Last time you were really happy?
hmm... eating icecream counted?

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
nope

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
how would i know

Whats your fav quote from a movie?
This is sparta?

Have you ever worn the opposite sexs clothing?
nope.. my mum tried when i was young, i nearly died

Do you think relationships are ever worth it?
not now

Connection between you and the last person who you text messaged?
erm... phone too far.

Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?
yeap

Today, would you rather go forward a week or back a week?
back

Has someone ever told you they would love you forever?
nope T.T

Who was the last person you sat beside at a restaurant?
cant remember

Is there anything you're excited for?
no

If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now, do you think they would get mad?
whoa that would be cool

Will you be up before 7AM tomorrow?
nope

Is it easy for someone to make you smile/laugh?
haha im smiling now -.-

Is there anything stressing you out currently?
i didnt study td?

Do you have a good relationship with any of your ex's?
NA

Are you a forgiving person?
depends

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
No

If your ex called you right now, would you answer?
NA

Do you have any plans tomorrow?
yea

Do you wish you were with someone somewhere else right now?
no

Are you wearing socks?
No.

Is it cute when a boy/girl call you baby?
Depends

Do you need to say anything to someone?
no?

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
yea

Were you dating anyone this past summer?
no

Is there a guy that you can go to in sweats, hair a mess, no make-up and still feel comfortable?
im in a boy sch.. ( somehow i think this quiz is made for girls)

Do you think relationships are hard?
yes

Would you cry if you found out you were pregnant?
YES

Do you like competition?
sounds cool

Are you saving up money for anything in particular?
sort of

Do you e-mail?
No

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days?
no

Ever kissed a brown haired, dark eyed person?
Nope

Are you stubborn?
Yes

Are you enemies with a former friend?
no

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
0o

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
no

Would you date someone 7 years older than you?
siao

What were your first thoughts this morning?
I wana sleep

Do you have a BEST friend?
Yes

Where was your default taken?
my house

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
yes... o shit

Do you trust people easily?
sort of

Do you like pulpy orange juice?
yes

Would you ever parachute off of a plane?
yes

Would you ever get a tattoo?
no

Plans for your next birthday?
hmm nt sure

Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
no

Had a 3h chat with andres, eugene and edwin in subway.Life is unpredictable. How hard is it to say I love you, before it fades away? I guess I guess I won't understand it any sooner.Well, maybe I am too young to understand. In this competitive region we live in, will my individual interpretations suffice? My dreams are too simple and impractical? I really don't know. Some chose the " eternal pride", some chose the "simple way". I chose the later. I learnt many things this year, many epic events took place the past few months which really changed my mindset. When someone you care for is hurt deeply, but what you can do is just look, are we taking bliss for granted? When you are hurt, you wish to be alone, but deep within, you hope that there is just someone you can talk to. I feel helpless. Can my future be as meaningful yet simple as I describe? Only time can tell. Is materialism so important? Must there be money to be happy? I really can't judge. Don't anyone just hope for a kind hearted wife, sensible children, healthy grandparents? Instead of pursuing materialism, forgoing blood ties? Given a choice? Would you be poor but happy or rich but complex? Do you cherish the times you had with your parents in a picnic or the times they bought you an iPod? Time lost, is lost, no turning back. Are you living your life in regrets? Could you had done better for ur exams if you had studied harder? Do we always take things for granted until we lose them? Should I lose certain things which are dearest to me, would I go with them? I am very afraid of death, not mine, but those dearest to me. Will it be too late then? A million and 1 what if? As we grow, some will fade, will they be only photos? Will they have any impacts on our lifes? Will they be just a memory in the form of photos? What's the use of everything you worked hard for, when you are really empty? Dreams, things that are just hopes for the future. Is it wrong to dream simple? Or is it wrong to dream big? Revolution is unlikely, let's just take a step at a time? There was an quiz question " loved before but hurt or deprived of it but safe?" I'm starting to shift for the later. 10, 20,30,40 years down the road, will be still be who we are? Are we just facing each other with facades of smiles, yet deception on the other? When you talk about leaving the cage, spreading your wings and soaring up to the deep blue sky, is it really as beautiful as it sounds, is the moon rounder there? Would you leave behind a trail of despair or destruction, or will a beautiful rainbow be formed on the bounderless plains? Love, hate, fear, life are all 4 letter words. Would an oxford dictionary be ample to define them? Or are they words many failed to be enlightened even when they pass on? Would hate be too heavy to bear? If the person you hate drops dead in front of you, would you feel any lighter? Or be subconciously bearing the heavier load? Do we always realize our mistakes after our wrongs?

Haha. Too many questions for my retarted mind! Happy holidays~!

Interesting chats with teachers

1) Mr Chan - i received my npdp shirt today

Mr Chan guestures me to come to him*

Mr Chan : What is your shirt size??

Me : M

Mr Chan : no, u take L

Me: -.-lll ok
(directly lifted from eugene's blog)
2)And Mdm Kwok walked by...
[Mdm Kwok] HELLO DARLINGS!
[Eugene] Errr....
[Mdm Kwok] I was imagining how your faces would have been while marking your papers.
[Eugene] Oh shit.
[Mdm Kwok] Nevermind, just let you all enjoy FIRST.

Hell with humans man.

(During Bio Aid...)
[Mr Gabriel] *notices my stack of bio notes* Fu Zhi, whose notes are those from?
[Me] You la.
[Mr Gabriel] Oh no wonder, they look highly organised.

.....

managed to peek at my compo results, totally shit. 18/30 for my patriotic story. damn it...
Whats with the teachers today...

I bet u people are going to laugh your asses out... I dont really know why am i so suay and it really sucks

Today, i went to library in the late afternoon to study(sort of).. So after like 1h, some guy a little older than me came and sat beside me. I was reading some gaming magazine and was reading an article about the game 'god of war'. Then that guy started looking at me for a few minutes and started to talk to me. He then proceeded to tell me his life story on how he defeated the antagonist of the game 'juice' or 'zeus' whatever he called it. After that, he kept talking to me which sort of made me uncomfortable, he then talked and talked and talked, while i was just saying 'orh..' the whole way + nodding my head.
After that he said that i looked good in the shirt i was wearing, which really made me feel even more uncomfortable... I wore my jacket in attempt to stop him from looking... Then he commented that i had a nice jacket... epic fail..... Afterthat he was asking some retarded questions and i kept continuing saying 'orh..'
Then he asked me if i have a lot of pretty girls in my school, i said yes, then he asked me if i had a girlfriend. This really freaked me out badly... then i said yes and made up some cock and bull story about my girlfriend being hot, sexy, busty, gorgeous, pretty, cute, charming, lovely she was....... haha, my story worked and after 5mins he walked off....

im like super suay, always attract the wrong sex. sighs.. i wouldnt mind if that guy was some hot babe.


this morning i attempted to make my own subway sandwich and it was quite good for a first try haha... i also replenished my supply of junk food! hehe.. after being deprived from junk food that i had to use moon cakes as replacement... o! i have raspberry icecream in the fridge! byes i go and indulge myself le

Yes tomorrow is more or less 'the last paper' 4 more papers on mon and tue, but they are quite minor ones.

yes im gona go wild this saturday haha.. and return to norm on sun and mug lol. haha.

tomorrow is physic and amath... 2 papers... choose 1.

Im feeling exceptionally calm for no reason, for some reason I hope that there's a full moon tonight. Let's not talk about prelims now, let's talk about something less stressful. Songs with violin inside are just so saddening.Haha, I think I should stop listening to emotional music, but they are so nice, maybe I'm a sadist who like sad songs.
You won't fade away when I close my eyes, right? I suddenly feel so alone.

Studied 2 of 5 themes for social studies, guess which 2 themes didn't come out, I won't complain anymore, no excuses, geography would be critical.

Chemistry was rude, mainly I feel, I was too complacent, thinking I am good enough to get an 85%, doubt I can muster 75% confidently. I heard this quote from a teacher, ' you had excelled in the paper if only you walked out of the hall as resiliently as you walked in.' there were a few concepts that I wasn't confident in. The rest lies on the mcq now.

I know I have to work doubly hard to attain the graduation medal now.

Let's keep positive. I can do it!

VJC + 6points... here i come

Cant picture myself in the VJC uniform.

Nevertheless, today was fun, visit eugene's blog, i think he will blog about today.

I know i snap in a matter of days.

Happy Birthday Sandra.

Tommorow is my oral examination, i musnt speak any singlish or say err...

Woke up at 6.30am and snoozed a little before heading to school. Whoa i realised that going off to school this time means you get to look at alot of cedar girls going to school. haha! Talking about cedar girls madam kwok gave some killer ss paper on cedar today. Urgh, and damien is very confused over it about it being a english or social studies question.

Class was either boring or i was too tired, i slept through part of it. opps! Today is the first day of the prelims, we arent required to go to school! but as such chao muggers we are, of course we will go to school and mug. Hmm.. nothing much happened in school other than talking about the same topic over and over again. Btw, go read eugene's article on his blog, its nice.. LOL

Saw angie on the bus home today, brought out something like going back to preimary school on teachers day, but i have ss prelim on wedneday so i guess i wont be going back there. Furthermore, i think none of the teachers are actually still there.

My orals tomorrow but i am still weak in reading and my forceful effect on reading is like a permerant thing to me. URGH.. i must jia you jia you!

Final Fantasy Advent Children Complete is out, just went around clicking and saw the new fight scene between cloud and sephiroth, quite nice to see cloud getting owned and sephiroth like poking him with his masamune. haha cute...