I think too much sometimes. Way too much... Someone was telling me some stuff and telling me about her life experiences. It was more like how we will see things different as we age slowly or quickly. We may seem to think that 20,30,40,50,60,70 may still be a long way across. I know that it will pass quickly, but not that quickly as i have expected. I dont think that i am ready to handle what is going to be thrown at me. Studies, Jobs, Relationships, responsibilty. They either seem like some form of fairytale of perhaps unreachable. I've never thought that far before. Calcalations. Something essential and that we shouldnt idealise too much.
I hope i make the right decisions as time passes.

The world doesnt really just rotate around me only, like i would had idealised. A prince charming with his castle saving his juliet. These aint reality. What reality is that everyone is dreaming of this non exsistent reality and i am not the only one. I am not as unique as i had thought. The problems i face arent limited to me only. They hit everyone and anyone. Its like awakening in the move 'matix' when you suddenly wake up and realise that you are not a unique individual but a product. Like a chess piece who is able to chart is own route, but still limited to a great extent. Notice the number of times i have used the word ' I" in this post, this is what actually worries me.

Maybe im taking a pessimistic point of view of the life around us. But perhaps my life is still alot better when compared to many others. I still have the chance in excell in life, no disabilities, and good relationships with people. Compared to some counterparts, i am already tonnes better than them.